I spent my younger years angry at a lot of people. Angry at my father for his lack of parenting and more. Angry at my biological mother for not being around. Angry at my step mother because I was told to be. The only person I wasn’t angry with was probably my grandmother. Now that I am older I am thankful for these people failing me. If they hadn’t I wouldn’t have grown into the person I am today. I don’t mean it to be an insult and they all came through in their own ways at different times when I needed them and for that I will always be grateful but I didn’t have the traditional “normal” family and that’s okay. I had to go through those things so that I could stand before you the person I am today those scrapes bumps bruises. The defeat it was all necessary to bring me here to make the person I am today. If it weren’t for my upbringing I wouldn’t have been able to do for others even when I really couldn’t do for myself. I had to walk a mile in someones shoes to get the whole judge not lesson. I appreciate that I am not proud of that leg of the journey but I do not regret it either. I am so thankful that I have learned what it is to forgive. Forgiveness is a beautiful thing not for those who have wronged you but for YOU once you can truly forgive you can move on and let go of the hurt. Once you let it go you move on and you grow and its a wonderful thing. I am so looking forward to being an encouraging force in other peoples lives. I want to be a positive influence I want someone to look back and think to themselves man I am thankful for that chick because she was there when I needed someone to be there. Not because I want recognition or accolades but because I know what it is like to be let down I know what it is like to go without I know what it is like to want an escape and have none. I know what it is like to NEED a kind word and how great it feels when you get that kindness shown to you when you least expect it. I want everyone to do their part to be a rainbow for someone else its not about material or financial support its about being kind because its what is necessary especially in today’s world where there are trolls and miserable people who just want to tear you down to make themselves feel better. I have my moments of weakness I have my moments when I let the miserable people get to me and they dull my shine for a tick but then I snap out of it and I try that much harder to brighten someones day because gosh darn it it feels so good to do. So my advice to you reading this right now be like Elsa and just LET IT GO!!!! Maybe not tomorrow but once you are healed enough and know that holding onto that anger does not serve you in anyway except for bad. Life passes us by way to fast so why let those negative things impact you another day?


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